OMG!!

So I know I haven't posted in a while but I have been pretty busy with school, work, and home. PLUS...I am turning 30 this month, so I am getting ready for a little party. You know, I don't know how I feel about this 30 turning. It's like I am about to turn down this road on my way to 40 and then 50, and then...I feel sad because I am leaving behind the years that I feel I accomplished the most in, which are of course my 20's! I kind of run teenage years and the 20's together but let's recap. I graduated, joined the military, traveled the world, lived in other countries, got out of the military, got my bachelors degree, got married, traveled some more, learned new things, started a new career, started my masters program, and now I am turning 30. Now, my biological clock is ticking. I feel like I should be going into a new direction, but I don't know where to go. Where do you go, what do you do? Who am I supposed to be? Are these the years I should have everything straight? I feel like the fun is over now, I mean honestly, what do I look like saying I am 30 and still going to the club? It just sounds...not old, but more mature. I have to raise the stakes. I need to pursue golfing and start getting active so my body forgets we have turned 30. On top of all that...I can't stop it, it will happen, nothing I can do about it, even if I lie and say I am another age, the truth will still be that I am 30! Oh well, I guess I better get it together and embrace this new age like I have done all the rest. I can't do anything but go up from here, so up, up and AWAY!!!